I would call John every time I got in the car - rarely did I drive anywhere really by myself - because I would give him a quick call just to say a whole lot of nothing. We loved it!
So now, I find myself getting in the car and.... being quiet. I actually have a ton of time to just be quiet and think! Sometimes this is good and sometimes this is really hard.
I find myself praying and just talking to God the way I used to just chat with John. I guess this might be considered a form of meditation. We talk about what's going on and how the scriptures that I'm reading might apply or strengthen what I'm experiencing.
I guess what I'm trying to say this morning is I want my conversations with the Lord to be just as pleasing to Him as those small little chats were to John. I could almost hear John smile when he picked up the phone. I want to make the Lord smile when I meditate on Him.
I found this verse this morning and it's given me a new determination to make sure that even my thoughts be pleasing to the Lord.
Psalm 104:34 (ESV)
May my meditation be pleasing to Him, for I rejoice in the Lord.
I do rejoice in Him - even through this! I don't know where "this" is taking me - but I want to have pleasing "chats" with the Lord while we're walking this road together.